Redemption!

Sail away!

2011-05-14T18:17:00.016+05:30

There I was,
back where i had already been,
still not sure I'll pass,
seems time to quit the scene.

Life is funny,
never you learn from mistakes,
Oh man, living the sad irony,
weathering off like delicate snowflakes.

all knowledge I've seems useless,
in meaningless quest of dame and dime.
if only man wasn't so senseless,
he wouldn't have invented the thing called Time!

Like the river flowing to the sea,
in a journey to the unknown.
Nothing at the horizon I see,
alas, long wait is what have to sail upon.

And like that.. He's gone..

2010-12-31T21:14:00.010+05:30

Life changes at the blink of an eye,if not faster. Just to remind you that you are getting older by every day,every week,every month and in the end every year, some sadist of an old bastard made up this thing called calender. Shit! Time flies. It's only a matter of seconds according to a dear friend of mine,yeah nano seconds.. Another year is about to end and i'm in office, retrospecting. Some must be having a blast (grrr... ), some might be alone,stuck somewhere,for some reason, and hell a lot will be boozing their way to the new year(just another reason of course),including my mentors! ;)

Thinking back, 2010 has been the cornerstone. My life has taken a turn and there is no looking back now,which is what i do the most nowadays. Ha! the good times! :)

I'm happy now, thinking of all the wonderful people 2010 had given me, of all those who stayed back after whatever happened in 2009, all the wonderful time i've had with each one of them. I've grown in many ways, i've moved out of home(finally..), started making decisions for myself (burp!), a sort of relaxed responsibility, I've laughed my heart out, cried my eyes dry in despair, I've danced around like a lunatic tribal dancer,jumping and howling, i've been in and out of touch, i've hurt and got hurt, i've forgiven and forgotten, and not, I've loved and wasnt, when was, haven't. I've made resolutions and never followed them,damn!

2010 I'll miss you, you've given me memories to cherish, wish i had a locker to keep them all safe along with the password (jeez,how to open now? Infinite loops are a speciality!). Even bugs in my designs will have to wait an year now.[buhahaha, beat it suckers,this is what you pay for making my life hard]! \m/

Wishing everyone of you out there a very special new year! Bonne Année ! :)

-Inq

Namma Ooru Bengaluru..

2010-01-31T13:32:00.000+05:30

Some observations,some miscalculations,total randomness,Life.

31st Jan 2009,

10 days since I landed in the Silicon Valley of India, Bangalore or colloquially speaking Bengaluru. One among the thousands of young brains pouring in,for a better job,a better life.This place is a whole new experience . To compare Bangalore and Trivandrum is pretty much a no job. You can easily fit in atleast 5 Trivandrums in Bangalore,with twice the number of people in each one. Not just the people,the shops,the traffic,the dust,dogs, pretty much everything can be doubled . This place is huge,really huge.

One of the main things that attract people to this place is undoubtedly the climate. Just one word to describe it-pleasant.Throughout the year. For people from the hotter parts of the country this place sure is Heaven,certainly with downsides.

Bangalore's a very well planned city,thanks to the genius of Kempe Gowda, which pretty much complicates the travel affair here. You'll find loads of layouts, main roads, gardens, phases, blocks, crosses,'-hallis','nagars'... Phew! And most houses here lack the concept of a lawn,reason is pretty obvious.

My little advice to anyone intending to travel around here is get a bike. BMTC is a good service but you always have to find connecting buses. And in haphazard Bangalorean traffic nothing's more suited than a two-wheeler. If you want edge-of-the-seat experience catch an auto-rickshaw, they'll just whisk you out of any traffic,dodge the traffic signals,overtake an SUV,teach some local slang,what not! Of course ignore the evil eyes and the meter readings.

This is a harmonious place. Here people from every corner of the world,mostly from India live in total harmony. If you think its only the people you got it wrong. Even the dogs have taken up to the city life. They are just everywhere. Nothing bothers them in the world it seems. A perfectly peaceful lot. Though there are occasional break outs and mob wars they have quietly taken their place amongst the citizens of this city.

All said, I love this place for one really good thing, it has helped me stay with the people I've always wanted to be with, my friends. This is a strange city with strangely named places, strange language, strange food and water, strange roads and strange smell. What better way to start a new life.

Life's never been better,even though I miss home and family. For now I'll go by what Bangalore is saying, "Enjoy Maadi...".

Hogi Banni!

At the Crossroads..

2010-01-13T23:10:00.000+05:30

A journey has ended and another is about to begin.

Life as I've known for the past 22 years will end tonight. I'll leave the place I've called Home and go in search of a new life, a new home. Happy and sad at the same time. Happy coz now i get to see the world, be on my own. Sad coz nothing like Home Sweet Home!

I get the feeling I'm gonna miss a lot of things and even more people. Aargh! Life moves on..

P.S:I don't wanna sleep tonight.Just want to enjoy,feel every second of it, like there's never gonna be one like it anymore. But I'm pretty sure this is just the beginning of my sleepless nights.

Sail away, it's time to leave
Rainy days are yours to keep
Fade away, the night is calling my name
You will stay, I'll sail away

-The Rasmus :Sail Away

CET,my love..

2009-08-16T09:17:00.000+05:30

The first two stanza from the song Venal Kaattil from Ritu. Everytime i hear this song it takes me back to that special place where i spent the most amazing four years of my life.

venal kaattil pookkal pole nammil ormakal..
eeran kannil tangum moodal pole ormakal..
pazhayora vazhi maram, itarumee ilakalay
ezhutiyo maravi tan, rituvilum varikal
pala sandhya poy maranju pakaletra yatrayay
nizhalayalanjuvo ni gatakalame...

venal kaattil .... moodal pole ormakal
viralu pol veerukal, tirayumee mannile
nanavukal podiyumo, poovil pulkodiyil,
veyilayi, manju mazhayay, tirasheela marave,
kali teernu poy maranjo, priya tozhare..

Singalong!

2009-05-18T08:19:00.000+05:30

The univ's are in less than a week's time, and i don't give a fuck!! Shashi Tharoor is the our new MP, the city and the state itself has high hopes. Got hold of the scrubs soundtrack lately, amazing collection! My current playlist....

Now playing -

1. Savage Garden - Truly Madly Deeply*
2. A R Rahman, Aslam, Nacim - Khalbali*
3. Chantal Kreviazuk - Wonderful
4. Carpenters - What The World Needs Now Is Love
5. Linkin Park - In Between
6. Eels - Fresh Feeling
7. Five For Fighting - Jainy
8. James Blunt - Carry you home
9. Simon & Garfunkel - The Sound Of Silence
10. Boyzone - When You Say Nothing At All*
11. Buckcherry - Sorry
12. Elvis Prisley - The wonder of you.
13. Five For Fighting - Easy Tonight
14. Finger Eleven - One Thing
15. Five For Fighting - Superman
16. Flobots - Handlebars
17. Francis Dunnery - Good Life
18. The Fray - How To Save A Life*
19. Gary Jules - Something else
20. Howie Day - Collide

P.S : The list is not exhaustive or exclusive and absolutely pointless but highly recommended(especially if soft rock is your cup of tea).

* All time favourites. Media players have come and gone, playlists have been created and deleted but these songs have stood the test of time....

Holy Molly!!

2009-05-07T20:58:00.000+05:30

I want to be free,
from bonds,responsibilities, any decree.
I want to run,run and run
keep running till The End.
I want to learn,understand.
I want to love and be loved,
I want peace of mind and a slice of bread,
I want to be happy, all to be happy,
I want no regrets or cigarettes,
I want to be just and perfect,an angel.
I want to feel good, feel bad, feel sorry, feel real.
I want to live life to the fullest,every second of it,
I want to travel round and round the world,
know it,see it,love it and be a part of it.
I want to go to the moon, the sun,
touch the stars, feel them cold on my palm,
I want to be born again,and die eventually,
I want it to rain when i wish and play in the mud,
I want money,power and fame,
I want something really really precious,
I want her and her and her,
I want to be the richest without earning a penny,
the smartest with brain hardly any,
the fastest and strongest, the best.
I want to be on top of the world,the Everest,
I want to be the luckiest,
I want to do everything that can possibly be done,mabbe like a scientist,
I want to live, in a dream, a fantasy.
I want to be god,human!
may even a single one should happen or not
the one thing i really want is to know and be myself all the time!!

P S:Boy,I'm greedy?! Sometimes I just surprise myself,mostly for the sake of it. I know there are many out there who have a similar wishlist and you know who you are! ;-)

LOL

2009-02-07T08:02:00.000+05:30

Some of my recent XKCD favourites. :)

Angular Momentum

Flash Games

Base System

Useless

Curse Levels

Alternate Currency

LOL!

Naun-cence

2009-01-23T22:43:00.000+05:30

This evening I was going through my collection of e-books, hoping to clean up so that i could free up some space on my hard disk for some much needed downloads(Phew! I'm outta breath..).And i happened to get stuck on this one book, Limericks the Book of Nonsense! Whoa!! This is one of those books which you will start reading apparently for no reason, but the title. A wacky and ludicrous title always arouses curiosity,starting with this one[:)]. The book didn't fail my expectations, not that i had many, nevertheless, this is a specimen of what i found inside:

There was an Old Man with a beard,

Who said, 'It is just as I feared!

Two Owls and a Hen,

Four Larks and a Wren,

Have all built their nests in my beard!'

Был один старичок в бороде,

Он сказал: «Так и знал, быть беде!

Две совы и несушка,

Корольки и кукушка

Свили гнёзда в моей бороде!»

There was a Young Lady of Ryde,
Whose shoe-strings were seldom untied;
She purchased some clogs,
And some small spotted dogs,
And frequently walked about Ryde.

Клоги юная леди из Райда
Шнуровала весьма аккурайдо
И, печатая шаг,
Свору пёстрых собак
Проводила по улицам Райда.

My best guess about the second language is that its Russian, google translator almost justifies my conclusion,Hooray!!.

Here goes the definition(Oh! Come on everyone copies from Wiki):
What are Limericks?

A limerick is a five-line poem with a strict form, originally popularized in English by Edward Lear. Limericks are witty or humorous, and sometimes obscene with humorous intent.(Courtesy: Wiki) Loved it esp this one,There once was a man from Nantucket.

The authors must have had as much fun as we've had reading these.(Supposedly a punch line for a punchy end) Hoping to write one or two myself, getting them to sound witty would be the hard part.(The follow up to the previous punch line) [:D]

P S: For copies of the book contact Inq. And I've got nothing better to do...

Sweeet!!

2009-01-12T07:25:00.000+05:30

Stumbled upon this one... a nice gesture, "priceless" too.. :-)

Colla(e)ge

2009-01-03T18:16:00.000+05:30

Was one hell of a day,Onam celebrations!! A treasure for life...

PS: this is a HQ, 5120*3840 in resolution and 3.30MB in size

O Holy Night!

2008-12-24T23:51:00.001+05:30

Hoi! A Christmas tree here!!
Merry Christmas and god bless all!
Have a laugh! ;)
and some more! :)

Bare bare

2008-12-03T19:51:00.001+05:30

I never told you,
I love you!
Now to stop you,
from bidding adieu,

To keep my heart from whining,
whenever memories tide in.
I'll say my confused mind,
and not leave nothing behind.

I have a dream,
with us together,
our shack by the stream,
kids running hither tither.

Hell! I yearn for the impossible,
but shall not leave hope
Courage and faith, i have, invincible,
still hope its not a nope!

Review: Kane and Abel

2008-11-05T23:50:00.000+05:30

*Spoilers,spoilers!!

Firstly, I'm no critic and i don't plan to write a critique.[:D]

Brilliant! Few words could describe such fluidity and ease with which the author wields the mighty pen. Such was the pleasure reading the book that i was totally absorbed by the characters and their lives. So very engaging was the plot and so brilliantly was it narrated that it all seemed so real.

The characters were so remarkably brought out that i almost lived and entire 65 years in just a few days time. I fought two world wars, build up an empire, ran a bank,made love and produced offspring capable of holding up my name. It was a roller coaster ride through the entire period and had to be one of the best reads I've ever had. People,characters have always interested me and i couldn't have found a better book to dwell into the minds of two different characters uncannily similar in some respects,hunger for success and hatred for each other.

Abels story of struggle during his childhood attracted me more towards his character. I liked how gallantly he fought his way past the Russians and finally made a place for himself. But as time went by i found myself liking William's character more and more. Maybe his successful love life and meticulous manner of dealing with things attracted me. Both were ambitious and proud nevertheless. Their strong will and clarity of thought impressed me as did their prudence and decision making.Their feud sounds more analogous to an unstoppable force meeting and immovable object.

I didn't like the way Abel treated Zaphia, how i wished both lived ever so happily. I was also disappointed when William and Abel shut out each other when either of them tried to make amends to their relation (well,I've no right to get disappointed as this is the heart of the whole plot,;)).Hmm... That's life and nothing is perfect. But as Mr.Shakespeare says,"All's well that ends well" The novel was a remarkable read and fully recommended.

Jabber

2008-09-30T10:14:00.000+05:30

Well.. I'm heading for the last shaastra as a CETian and this time the hopes are really high... I'm confident we are definitely gonna rock this time around.. Learning from past experiences, we seven have come a long way... Its been a roller coaster ride this 3 years and it al seems so fresh as if it had been yesterday that we all walked the stairs to our first year class.. We've grown more mature and our bond of friendship strengthened by each second we pass together.. This surely has been the best part of my life... For sure i'm gonna miss them all.. The sense of isolation came to me yesterday too.. I'm scared but i believe if i dont face my fears now i might not be able to overcome it in the future as well... I wanna be a complete man in an emotional sense when i pass out so that i can build on my experiences that i may encounter in the future.. To be prepared for the real life i must be. or perhaps life aint that different at all... just a bigger picture of the present may give the true nature of the future... The lack of clarity of thought has haunted me a lot but i guess its time for me to grow up, stand up to what is right and raise my voice for the good... Well.. my mind is as discordant as this post is but i have faith in myself some day it'll all come together and i shal feel true inside of mine.. Acceptance, forgiveness and healing... Some of the things i need to understand.. I need to know myself.. but how? I feel a lot more comfortable when i'm alone, when i'm left on my own... But i'm lazy then.. or i'm misdirected more correctly... too many things occupy me then and i hit a stand still.. focus, that is what is needed... direction wil come with focus and peace of mind and the power to face the unknown...

Taken for Granted

2008-07-02T22:51:00.000+05:30

Well... Must say I'm really lucky to lead a problem free life. I've always seen myself as an under exposed raw talent. I've felt its because of the way i was brought up the way ma parents looked after me that I've remained raw forever. I've always taken their care for granted like we all do. Most of the times I've felt like had my mom been a little more well off, my dad a little more richer, then i could have expanded my horizon. But the reality is that only me myself am responsible for what ever horizons i haven't touched, my amount of knowledge about this world. Parents can only guide you , have to walk through the path treaded by the knowledge and experience of the elders.

Perhaps I should have taken a different perspective. Had i not had this much care and protection i could have turned out into a much worse individual. I've had no difficulty what so ever so far in my life. It pains me to think I'll have to leave the security of the home and step into this world to face stiffer challenges than ever before. Until now our parents took care of all our needs bearing a lot of pain. Now its our time to show then what we are capable of. I have to bring justice to what they have done for me and try and full fill their expectations to the maximum and give something back to the society that has had its share in my success.

" Success is the progressive realization of a worthy goal"

Back home

2008-06-03T21:16:00.000+05:30

After a long time i sat down with ma tool set in the photoshop. It was nice to be back. Hmm.. I must say I haven't lost my touch with the tools even though the rendezvous has been long delayed. This is some of the pics i did. I'm still an apprentice so guess the pictures might not be hugely appealing or anything.

Here's the album: Change is refreshing!

A good conversation

2008-05-20T22:59:00.000+05:30

Me: How are you ma boy??

Red:Fine!

Me:Very well... Hmmmm... you know why i come here dont you?

Red:Yeeaaah, to piss off!

Me:Hmmm... I'm so sorry if i'm bothering you, you the only one whom i can talk to like this..

Red:Alright. Go ahead.. Pee on me...

Me:Oh! Dont be so rude.. I'm going off then.. Sorry for wasting your time.. Take care..

Red:Fuck off!

Me: :((

Fucked Up!

2008-05-02T12:32:00.000+05:30

OK.. this is it...

The placements are approaching fast in fact in just a month and I'm sitting in ma house like a stupid freak typing out some stupid thing.The thing that worries me the most is the fact that i ain't got nothing on me,any credentials, to prove my worth.To be fair i myself don't know what I'm worth! Sigh! Into two months I look around and i see all of them walking off with tidy little jobs. But I'm not a loser anymore. I ain't afraid I'm gonna land a fucking job or not. I'm gonna land one for sure. Why do i have to prove myself each time?

What the hell is wrong with me ? Am i just an incompetent asshole? Or I'm just a complacent prick making way for every other tom dick and harry to go forward and make a life for themselves. I know I'm talented and hardworking but I'm afraid or rather i was afraid of this socialisation and being centre of attraction and blah blah... I have got nothing to show for myself. I done nothing ma entire life. I have just wasted my time on things that never really mattered. But one thing I'm pretty confident about is I'll survive no matter what. I know i can survive because I've survived up till now and will forever. That's what I'm all about. I know myself a lot better now. I know how to enjoy life i know what this life is all about. I know what is waiting for me or perhaps i just know i ain't gonna be a fucking mud head loser.

To be frank my mind's running empty at this moment, a pain grips me by my throat it wont leave until I'm reassured about ma future. Its ma instincts. its the confidence. I'm in a confused state I'm in a fucking struggle the struggle for existence and I'm afraid I'm gonna perish in ma struggle. Wat if i don't land a job? What if i fail to make it to the IITs or IISc? What if I'm jobless after 4 years what if my dreams were to be thrown out through the window?? I don't wanna be fucking jobless i don't wanna look pathetic i don't want sympathy I'm a man I'm a man of action and not words. I'm totally fucked!

Why the fuck didn't i do a thing? Shit! I'm just pissed off like anything.. Damn!

Dead end.... Take Diversion!!

2007-09-19T17:17:00.000+05:30

hiya peopple...
It so happened that at the time of creation of this blog rather this one's dad 'Malignant' the bloke's of ma class started a group blog and so never got time to drop by. So if you people are really interested in knowing what inquisitivo(by the way, tats me ok!) and his peers are all about then click here....

Adios amigo!

Wish ya gud health!

Dum!Dum!Dum!

2007-08-30T18:35:00.000+05:30

Oh!! i think i accidentally deleted my previous blog,Malignant!! So inorder to redeem myself I've created this blog